Everyone knows this one spiritual person who says she enlightened. She runs around with a beaming smile, is full of love and she vibes high. At least, she says so. This is not the person we are talking about. We talk real enlightenment. The real enlightenment which has side-effects so strong that you sometimes wish you can undo it. Because life is much easier delusional.
Real enlightenment doesn’t show in the burning of incense, in fancy spiritual clothes and not in ecstatic orgasms. It is actually quite simple. Ok, I admit it. When it happens, it is ecstatic. During the experience and afterwards. Mostly because everything has changed. You might feel the urge to wake others up, in the beginning, tell the people around you that this whole reality is not what they think it is at all , and stuff like that. Don’t. They will think you’ve lost your mind, and in a sense, this is true.
The side effects of being enlightened no one talks about
I talked more about this “Waking-Up Thing” in this article, so I will skip the process.
Let’s assume you are past this experience. And now your post-enlightened You is more confused than ever. Because now you have to get used to this new “thing”, and this is hard, I know, and only the real can relate. I feel you. Because most certain, you woke up, had this special fancy moment, and now you want to know what the hell is wrong with you. This is what brought you here. I get it, because I googled it myself.
I googled: “Am I really enlightened?” “Enlightened and still suicidal” -stuff like that.
Because being enlightened in this (western) world is not easy, you know this already. They say in an optimal setting (and with that they mean a Zen-Monastery where you get the most needed support) it takes at least 7 to 10 years to adapt to this new state of consciousness. Well, unless you are in a monastery, you struggle at this point.
Your Post-Enlightenment Survival-Guide
1. Let’s talk about the death wish.
This is the most dangerous phase. It is not that: “Everyone is so mean to me, my whole life sucks and I gonna kill myself to show you how much I suffer.” It is not depression or an overwhelming sadness. It’s more like you wanna go home. You are ready.
You’d done what you had to do, and nothing is left to do. You do not relate to the people in your life anymore, you do not relate to the world around, there is no value in this life, because you passed this value point. More so, you feel kind of trapped in your body- imprisoned in a sense.
But this shall pass as well. Promise. After a while you will enjoy the feeling of being free AND still alive.
2. You feel lonely.
And you are. More than ever. No spirit guides to talk to, because they also had done their job. And left, because you don’t need them anymore. Even when people are not aware of it, we all have them around. Normally. Not you. They stepped back. They don’t talk to you anymore. You can’t hear them no longer. This is why you feel lonelier than ever.
But the good news is: They are not far away. After getting used to this, you will soon feel the deep connection with everything and everyone.
This is not a personal connection, it happens more on a soul-level, and this also feels weird at the beginning. But nice, though.
3. You do not manifest anymore
This is the confusing part. We all do manifest, on some level. We wish or think or feel something, and strangely enough, this stuff happens. Normally we don’t think that the reality we experience has its origin in us – because there is quite a time-span in between feeling/thinking/wishing and manifestation. (No, willingly trying to manifest leads to big trouble-don’t.)
In first place, shortly after your enlightenment, you manifested faster than ever. I know. Think something, happens immediately. And it was fun, right, but now, you are wondering what the fuck happened?
It’s not working anymore. Disabled. Yes. It is. But don’t worry. You are only synchronizing with the unity, and this takes some time. Then IT does what IT does, and manifests through you.
4. You are in pain
Your back and everything is aking. You are enlightened AND in pain. That sucks. You’ve done Yoga, you are fit, and there is no reason for it, nor does the doctor find any. But it hurts and most likely you taking more painkillers than ever. The reason is: You are also getting a DNA Up-Date. Your displaced organs and vortices are fixing themselves. That hurts. I googled it, we all have that problem.
5. You are crying A LOT
Your cybernetic settings are changing, or your Karma is in progress of killing itself, whatever term you prefer. This hurts, because, what the fuck have you done your whole life? What was you thinking? And why is it still so difficult?
Hush… this also takes some time. I know your life is falling apart at this point- but just because it is no longer aligned with you. It will fix itself, but the feelz, the feelz. I know. You are on a Karma-Detox.
6. You are no longer thinking.
Something is strange. And it is. You cannot explain it with enlightenment. It took me a while to figure out what it was: I was no longer thinking. This internal dialogue: Gone. Changed into pure awareness.
In case you are wondering what exactly this strange thing is, check if you are thinking. Most likely you are not. You can choose to, and you will do so, of course. But it is this missing inner dialogue combined with pure awareness that surly feels strange.
This silence, this stillness … You can watch TV if you’re getting too bored. I never enjoyed Realty TV more than after my enlightenment. 😉
7. You can connect and disconnect on a soul level
Try it. It is easy. Because most likely, there is nothing karmic to resolve left. So, the bad news is, there is no sense in loving someone more than you love the rest of the world. Good news: I don’t say it -you know it.
8. No Sense in Yoga and Meditation any longer
Not at all, because you already know that there is no difference between meditative and normal state. But nothing wrong with getting in shape and doing the Buddha-Thing.
(And between us: these transparent layers of the Maya – that is crazy, isn’t it?)
Not so much left to say at this point, shoot me message if you need more support with that.
Love, Leni
