Human Design: On Outer Authority

The Art of Just Knowing

for my fellow Mental Projectors

After being finally at the end of my 7th year of actively and fully doing the Human Design Experiment, it is time for me to reflect – especially on what I’ve learned about Outer Authority. In this article I will share briefly some of my learnings. (And yes, this year was the hardest, but then again no.)

1. Outer Authority

Outer Authority is really Outer Authority – and not some twisted form of Inner Authority. Hence, we cannot expect it to work like the Authority the other types are talking about.

I give you an example: I met a “frenemy” I cut ties with long time ago. She looked at me, I could see her fake smile showing up, and I was thinking: Oh my god, what to say, what to do, how to react, … stuff like that. And while I was considering what to do, I was already moving away from her- I mean, while thinking, my body was just moving away – I was surprised myself. No planning to do so, no waiting on something in me to feel a certain way. Nothing. I just let it happend.

But there have been and are many others instances like that. I hear random people talking in the tube about something which turns out to be important for my life. Or somebody tells me something about something random – and suddenly I know: this is the stuff I’m looking for- and suddenly I know what to do. Whenever this happens, I know immediately when it is meant for me.

And this is the fun part of Outer Authority: It just happens. Outside of you.

IT does IT itself

Another example: I don’t know why, I felt the urge to go somewhere, in the middle of the night, all by myself, without even planning it, against all reason, without checking with soundboarding- and had the time of my life.

My point is: It is important to not let the thoughts of doubt interfere. IT does IT itself, and IT knows best. Though I do not believe in this or would call it that, but when some say “the universe is speaking to you” – this is what describes it best. The only thing I had to get rid of where my self- doubts and therefore self-sabotaging behaviour.

2. The MIND

The Mind is – in our special (Mental Projector) case, really reliable – for in its purest state it is not mingled with mundane (earthly) stuff. Therefore it is in a state, where others have to work very hard for to reach that point of clarity.

It is not the conditioned mind I’m talking about. There is a mind beneath the surface which knows exactly what is up, and what is right – because it is very reliable when it comes to considering all possibilities, pro and cons, etc. It’s more like a strong intuition, and in my case, a logical one. It is already tuned into — or aligned with …. And it just needs to be kept playful.

For ex.: I was under the shower once, totally enjoying myself at that time. I guess I was singing. And that MIND thought (not I willingly thought): It would be nice to work as an assistant for a few weeks, because this would be the right move. And boom, got a call a day later, and did it.

Just tune in

I was not me manifesting this, it was already manifested. It was just important to not intervene, so that I could have tuned into it. There was no need for a decision or to do something. It is really important to let IT do what IT does.

And yes, because of my self-doubts I fucked some really big things, and I mean big invitations, up as well, because, you know, I just didn’t trust this outer wisdom and thought it is a good idea to do some “soundboarding” instead and the hesitation was killing it.

Which leads us to the next point.

3. Inner Authority: None?

“Soundboarding” is not what I thought or been told it is. I mean, I can reveal anything by talking – and therefore it is important, though. I talk, and just by joking I can reveal a person’s deepest secrets, which is always surprising, even for me, and I had to learn to trust these truths, even when they come off as absurd.

Sometimes I can get more clarity about my motivations and reveal other people’s motivations by “soundboarding”, which is also important, don’t get me wrong. But I can’t make decisions based on “soundboarding”.

I’m much longer into “soundboarding” than fully into the Human Design Experiment, for my first reading was 15 years ago, and this was the first thing I have tried to deal with, because I was told this is the most important thing- this is your Authority. And I have a degree in acting, so I’m trained and can hear every nuance, I can feel every change of vibe in my body – and as revealing it is, and surprising and savage and important – “Soundboarding” it is not my Authority as such.

Soundboarding as a clarity gaining tool

It’s more a clarity gaining tool, but to me it is just a tool, not the ultimate tool, which would be, if any, meditation and Yoga.

Because my Authority is not based on something I do, think, plan, or say. It works like I have described it in part 1.

IT does itself without the need to decide. I just have to release the pressure by talking from time to time, but this is more to not sabotage IT.

At least, I mean, why not trust the source when it says: Projectors don’t have Inner Authority as such? Why the urge to tell them that that they are incomplete without? And to rely on the energy of others? But I will leave it at that, my 43-23…. You know 🙂

Love, Leni

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